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engage_the_enemy) wrote2015-06-10 06:35 pm
engage_the_enemy) wrote2015-06-10 06:35 pm
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<shulk> FFJFKJGF, YOURE DARN TOOTIN'
sorry
[And...oh. Alright, Fiddleford brings up that uncomfortable topic himself. That confusing, upsetting one.]
Fiddleford, did you really...did you actually erase your memories? why would you do that? he was awful to you, but wouldnt it be better to remember and avoid him than going through it again?
what magic let you do that?
<hadron> hope you like text walls
Well. Obviously I don't remember why, not firsthand, though now I reckon I can take a pretty good guess from what I've pieced together. We were working on a device together. A portal to other worlds. That much I still have. At some point we tested it and I was pulled in and saw -something-, something that convinced me it was too dangerous and would destroy our reality. I think what I saw must have been that demon, Bill, or whatever his home was like.
And the thing is I was right. Someone from both our futures is here and according to her, Bill's in the middle of stomping the Earth flat. I was -right- and he chose the dang portal over me, refused to shut it down, and left me to deal with what I'd seen all on my own. Of course I destroyed my memories of it. That's not the kind of thing a man wants to know exists. It's not the kind of thing a man wants to know about his best friend. I knew he was trouble. It was better not to know exactly why I knew.
<shulk> i live for them. i am them
if it only connected to that world, your friend shouldnt have pursued it. im sorry he didnt listen to you. maybe he didn't believe you
friends are supposed to trust one another
but i dont know if forgetting was the answer. that didnt do you any good either. its hard to think badly of someone you trusted and care about, especially when you gave them another chance
it's hard, but its doable. you wouldnt have had to suffer like this again. Fiddleford, what are you going to do now that you cant wipe your memories this time?
<hadron>
[Well that sure as hell isn't ominous.]
But if I've survived near on four months without being able to unsee the things I've seen here, then I can keep going. I'll be fine.
[It's not fine. It's just eating away at his brain in a different way. Slower, sure, and harder to pick up on, but he's coming apart bit by bit all the same.]
<shulk> I LOST THIS BYE ties it up neatly
But he's inclined to believe Fiddleford can be okay.]
yeah.
thats a good point, actually. youve not only seen these things, youve lived them. and youre still here
i know you can keep getting stronger too. it just felt shaky there, seeing you talk like that
but alright. i understand now. take care of yourself, as you have been